Bagelboy you only came into my home a week ago tonight, before leaving me again. We did try so hard to make you better but after only a few really good days your poor weak heart just couldn’t do it any longer. I am sorry little man, I feel like I failed you somehow even though I am sure you don’t blame me.
I had a feeling our little Bagel would be leaving tonight, even though he had an appointment with Dr. Munn tomorrow to be pts. I can almost tell now…he was having some issues breathing and gasping and clicking. But I lay on the couch and he lay on me and calmed right down. He didn’t want my hands touching him too much as he was probably scared about anything interfering with his breathing. So I held my hands over him like a warm tent…and he lay there and stared at me. We stayed like that for quite awhile then he pushed up more under my chin. I gently stroked him and whispered to him. At 9:48 pm he stopped breathing. I burst into tears…I knew it was coming but I wanted it to be at 2 am so we had a long bittersweet evening together!!! He started breathing again, I held him up and gave him a kiss and then he quietly left me again.
The shine and soul went out of his eyes and then he was quiet.
Bagel was a gentle, beautiful soul in a weak, defective body…I hope to meet him again one day. He dug deep in my heart just like my sweet Gwinny (who was also only with me for a week) and I feel his loss just as hard.
Breathe deep, run hard, and climb little man, climb everything in sight!!!!
I am going to miss this little face heart
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